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Sep. 12th, 2015 05:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mrbumblepantsAnxiety rolls in like clockwork around 6 pm most days. It's kind of amazing. I can even use it to tell time now. My biggest theory of it is that it is the beginning of when I normally get home, and the count down for bedtime looms. So it's this continual thing where I struggle & fail to get things done. Thankfully, we are working on some new scheduling stuff that is going pretty well - but the 6 pm anxiety remains, apparently.
To help deal with it today, I decided to go looking around the property for a tree I might be able to try climbing. I have a theory that physical activity might help. Anyway, my waterproof shoes have holes down the side to allow everything to air out. A branch got stuck in one of them, and then I tripped & fell. Yay.
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Also pondering today what seems to be a consistent anxiety trigger for me: when I try to find something and it is missing - especially if that thing being missing then shines a spotlight on a much bigger mess. Add on top of that if someone else is sending me to look for a thing and it can't be found or I have no idea what it looks like. I can deal with it, but I think this is one of those things where I'd just prefer to arranging my life so I don't have to.
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There is so much unnecessary bad design in the world. Omfg. Who decided that no delete key on a tablet was good? How many kids are going to grow up having no idea that their ancestors were able to plunk a cursor down & delete everything that came after it? It's difficult to get a cursor at the end of a word or after a certain letter sometimes, so that backspace can be used. I'd rather just press a button & delete. Also, I would like to hold down the hyphen or the space bar or whatever & get a bunch of that same option. That would be great.
Additionally, I think it's crap that 3d printing markets bar the creation of dildos. People could be experimenting with interesting shapes & materials, and this would circumvent an almost entirely unregulated market that actually poisons people with harmful materials. It would be great if we could all be grown ups living in a grown up world.
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I am considering just limiting myself to one Facebook post per week, & interacting with people via the messenger there. It would circumvent the horror that is the Facebook feed, but would let me stay in contact with folks. And in mobile, the Facebook messenger is an entirely different app.
To help deal with it today, I decided to go looking around the property for a tree I might be able to try climbing. I have a theory that physical activity might help. Anyway, my waterproof shoes have holes down the side to allow everything to air out. A branch got stuck in one of them, and then I tripped & fell. Yay.
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Also pondering today what seems to be a consistent anxiety trigger for me: when I try to find something and it is missing - especially if that thing being missing then shines a spotlight on a much bigger mess. Add on top of that if someone else is sending me to look for a thing and it can't be found or I have no idea what it looks like. I can deal with it, but I think this is one of those things where I'd just prefer to arranging my life so I don't have to.
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There is so much unnecessary bad design in the world. Omfg. Who decided that no delete key on a tablet was good? How many kids are going to grow up having no idea that their ancestors were able to plunk a cursor down & delete everything that came after it? It's difficult to get a cursor at the end of a word or after a certain letter sometimes, so that backspace can be used. I'd rather just press a button & delete. Also, I would like to hold down the hyphen or the space bar or whatever & get a bunch of that same option. That would be great.
Additionally, I think it's crap that 3d printing markets bar the creation of dildos. People could be experimenting with interesting shapes & materials, and this would circumvent an almost entirely unregulated market that actually poisons people with harmful materials. It would be great if we could all be grown ups living in a grown up world.
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I am considering just limiting myself to one Facebook post per week, & interacting with people via the messenger there. It would circumvent the horror that is the Facebook feed, but would let me stay in contact with folks. And in mobile, the Facebook messenger is an entirely different app.
